Inspired by Liu Qian

Why i say inspired by Liu Qian? It's not about his magics that he is famous with but it's his personal character behind the scene.
I watched "A date with Lu Yu", a chinese show which Lu Yu interviewed lots of celebrities, and this time round was Liu Qian, the magician.
During the interview, he revealed himself as a very home guy. He doesn't like to answer phone calls, neither talk on the phone. His ringtone is always silent, because he was afraid of the ringtone, hence he only on the vibration. And what's more weird about him was he also doesn't like to see others talk on the phone. Kind of weird right?
What came through my mind was I'm totally opposite. I love to talk on the phone, I love to SMS. Used to.
But some how, since I have been single, I stopped this phone addiction thingy. Because it makes me feel safocicated. I feel dissappointed when there's nothing on my phone.
I guess phone does make me feel wanted. be it it's a guy's msg or a girl friend of mine. It doesnt matter so long there's something shows on the phone..
I was in M'sia these few days. I think I'm kind of pathetic because I can't think of any friend that I can contact with except Shu Fern. like really? People out there doesn't believe I have such a little friends.. What?! How come? You're so outgoing, so chatty... That's what they will say when I tell them that i don't hv lots of friends.
Well, I'm only chatty when I'm in my comfort zone..
Haiz.. But sometimes, more friends will also make me feel more lonely..
Like a movie, the hero said: lonely it's because you're with a group of people and they are yet to notice your presence.. I hate that feeling..



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2012 belated new year resolutions

Ok, I know it's kind of late to post this, but at least I did post and make a few new year resolution right?
My 2012 new year resolution:

- Get a new job and to be a clinic nurse. This consider as already made it!! Going to start work on March at Tan & Teoh Clinic as a NURSE! When I break this news to Dr. George, he was happy for me as he also know I had a hard time to decide and face the reality of becoming a NURSE!! Hahah..

- To save up for a HTC phone, a laptop, last will be a camera. Because if my HTC phone's media quality is good enough for me, then camera will be the last items I wanna get. I cant believe all my electronic items spoiled at almost the same time.

- To be more prettier. Of course I have to slim down more as now I gained 2 more kg... Good life!! Thought of using the excuses that I'll prepare for the mid autumn performance, then I will do dance practice every weekend, maybe i'll slim down like a little?? Not enough I guess.. What more should I do? No Jogging please.. I hate running.. Why? leelee, running is the fastest way to shape up the body tone!! Me: Nah.. I hate it coz my boobs will be like "dumb dak dumb dak dumb dak" bouncing!! And guess what? It's hurt when it bounced too much.. Arghh!!!

- In terms of being prettier, I learned how to put on full make ups like base foundation and blusher. Well, brother did say I looked nicer with full make up on!! Happy! I got a quite good deal on Sunday when PC and i went to shop at Bugis at Watson! Purchased Za products, the sales person was really helpful, as I know nothing about foundations although I watched quite a lot of make up tutorials, but still not sure what's suits me. She helps me with the colour tone that I should get which matched my skin colour. I'll definately get more if I am working this month but the fact is I'm not. So I still have to save for next month.

-To work out a better performance for this year's mid- autumn performance! I wanted to prepare 3 dances for them! 2 for P2,P3. 1 for P4, P5, P6. Kind of worry about the amount of students that will actually perform on that day. But I'll still try my best to make things work! Hehehe!!

- To at least able to travel or visit any good beaches either in M'sia or Indonesia. Its kind of hard as I'm single now, no body to accompany, If i were to ask mom to go with me, for sure she will reject because she is always busy with family chores and works.. So I hope I really have the courage to travel on my own.

- To quit my habit on visiting Tagged too much. This is so hard for me. I had been visiting Tagged more than Facebook. Because too many relatives in Facebook and I can't just shout out what i really wanna say there. Not good if they tell parents..

- To conquer my fear of being alone at times, but although I doesn't wanna be independent... This is sad.. at times, it seems like the chances is here, right in front of me, so near yet so far.. lots of things that need to be consider before accept. It's always like this: should i give it a try or give up before it started. When this appear, it must be a hard situation...

- To be a good, passionate nurse! Like Ayunie and Yee Teng!!

- To be able to have a holiday with Fern in SG and Batam when she wanna come over!!

Ok, that's all I could think of for now. Hope I can achive all these!!

See this? Charles & Keith bag!! In love with it!
A gift from Dr. Choo, Ayunie, Yee Teng, Poh Lian!! Well, they say it's a token from all other colleauges... but i don't really think so.. hahah..
Ok. I'm now resting at home and good news is i had my menses after so long!! Quite a heavy flow, but i don't feel the cramps!! That's another good news!  
Going back to SG on Friday! Hai Yin class opening falls on this weekend, i'm in charge in ice breaking session. Well, I had an idea for it but not sure whether it'll work or not. Haiz.. I'm kind of glad that my new job is off on Sunday. So that there's no changes in the roster! Happy! <3
I can't wait to go back to busy works and acticities so I can be busy and not to think so much nonsense.
Was wondering whether i should get another part time. Laptop spoiled, camera gone, what else? Oh ya, my mobile phone contract is ending soon!! Intend to get HTC something.. I can't remember the exact phone model!! Hahah!! That's why I was wondering whether i should get a part time or not.. Should i?
Maybe I should post my new year resolutions soon.. because every one had done it! So i can't lose right? Although it's already mid Feb soon.. I'll post it!! Have faith and be more hard working in blogging leelee!!

Little thoughts

Nothing much about this posts.
I can hardly take nice pictures ever since moved back in SG.
I wanna share about my feeling which it always went to the wrong person.
About this guy whom i met a few months ago, we were once very closed.
But after some liking developed, horror part of myself revealed.
Must be curious right!! Which part of leelee is horror???
Insecure! Suspicious! That's the horror me!
I guess that's what scared him away as he disappear for 5 days straight! Hahah! Good job dude!
On my way to work actually. CNY is just 3 days ahead! Used to very excited about it but now, working life had it almost ruined.
Seeing mom was tired tidy up the room, preparing new year goods, dad don't even spare more money for her to buy extras. Using her own money for the kids to get new clothes. Somehow, she just sacrifice her money and freedom to get more for herself. I was wondering, will I become like her one day?
I asked her a quite stupid question that day as my curiosity overwhelmed me.
Mom, will you and dad leave us behind if you guys have a chance to migrate to a better place? Her answer is no. She never thought of leaving any one of us behind even though when she faced some marriage failure.
She was curious too when I popped this question to her. I said it's because his parents leave them and migrated to Boston. She thought I'll only ask this kind of question when I was young. To her, I'm a grown up. Wouldn't have this thought anymore like what almost all the kids will have: will my parents leave us one day.
Till now, I am still wondering but happy that she didn't.
Can't think properly if one day, that day, she left me behind and moved on to another life... What's the meaning of my living...
Perhaps I havent found some one who I can't live without yet. Maybe one day when I'm almost 28...
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Finally...

Let's see when is my last entry.. Wow!! 25th Oct 2011!! I'm not even post an entry for my birthday!!
Ok.. Will do a brief description about my big day!
I'm quite happy with my 24th birthday. Had 4 birthday cakes in a month, received the most birthday presents ever after I had grown up.. I had to thank my mom and family for held a BBQ party exactly like I had requested. Katija was invited, although I didn't receive any present from her but I'm happy that I finally celebrated my birthday with my SG friend. (please note that I'm not such a petty person who Fwill really care whether my friends buy me any presents but at least don't break your promises. It broke my heart too..)
Then Huali and Shuang Shuang also celebrated my birthday at jurong point. They bought me a chocolate cake. While a work place, REMC also bought me a fairy tale strawberry cake from Four Leaves! Love that cake! This is how they gave me the surprise: Ayunie kept asking me about the appointment thingy when I said I wanna pee!! Then yi teng bring in the fairy cake!! Wow! I thought they had forgotten it because we were freaking busy that Monday! And my present from them was a pink wallet from Charles and Keith! And Peng chin also got me pink lady like bag from Thailand as she went there for holiday with Bf!! I'm glad she found her happiness!
I mentioned 4 cakes right! Another cake was for my mom! I spend quite a lot for mom that birthday! Because I bought her a diamond ring, a green tea flavor cake which taste awfully weird, a dinner for my family! Wow! I'm so proud of myself! Of course mom was happy and wear it every day!

Hmm.. What else is that so happening! Oh ya! I had moved back to SG! That was when I had stopped updating my blog! Not busy with life but just have no idea on what to blog..

Yes! Christmas! Celebrated with Peng chin at TGIF! what a waste of money dining there! Food was salty, oily and not full filing at all! The most of all its freaking expensive! Not worth my money! Peng chin bought me my long time craves! The Body Shop's perfume set!



Like seriously finally some one got me this! Which I hesitated to buy it myself! I almost forgot that I was once want it so badly!!
Thanks Peng chin for remembering it! And guess what I got for her?? A bolster! Ya I know! I'm that kind of person will buy things that my friend need no matter what they want but of course price will always be the main concerns! Muahaha!!
Then REMC also celebrated christmas at can't remember the buffet place which located at Raffles City. Food was not worth the money as well but it's not from my wallet therefore it's fine with me! Oops! Hahah! I got a makeup set from Ayunie and I got a few stuffs for yi teng! She's happy as I can see!

No photos because I lost my camera! Can you believe it? I lost almost everything except my own head!
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playing with fire

I met him after 1 yr.. He didn't changed much except for being a damn smoker!! He changed his car, from small to big..
We meet up after 1 yr.. I have lots of imagination before i met him. Most of them happened.. I cried.. we kissed, cuddled.. He asked me why am i crying.. How can i answer this silly question..
He said he know that i missed him from the way i kiss. Then don't ask that silly question why am i crying.. He is a big fat idiot..
Promised to meet up again.. And i think we are playing with fire..
Meet up as friend, want to meet up more often, then more and more often, feel jealous when his phone rang, kept on persuading myself  "we are impossible", "i'm just his friend", "don't ever think about that". Sooner or later i'll want more from him...
I don't know how honest he is when we meet up.. but at least i'm honest.. "no one but him".
After that night, i feel that i'm full with love.. but after that night, i know one day, i have to wake up.. he is not mine..
Family and love, i chose family.. That's what i should bear in mind..
Even now, I miss him still.. Sickening leelee... always love the wrong person...

my simple birthday celebration

10th Oct 2011... I officially turn into 23 yrs old. Doesn't sounds old at all.. Hmm.. I must say that I had the most birthday cakes ever eaten among my whole life till 23 yrs!!

Total 3 cakes for myself, 1 cake for Ayuni's birthday which is today. Another 1 will be mom's.

On 8th Oct, Katija came over to my house for BBQ for the 1st time after we know each other for more than 3 yrs. I'm happy that she can make it for me. Thanks LOVE!!

No present on 8th Oct, but I have a total of RM300 of Ang Pao!! Muahaha

After that Katija went back to Singapore and I continue to stay at home rotting!!!



On 10th Oct, the actual day of my birthday. I went to work as usual, it's a Monday!! Well, Monday was busy. I thought they were forgotten about my birthday as everyone was freaking busy with their work. I wanted to have lunch with Ayuni but she rejected me because she had lots of things to finish up. Then I had my lunch with Poh Lian instead. I guess i was being pampered by Yi Teng as she accompanied me for lunch everyday during my night. After busying with all the work, finally i can breath, Ayuni caught me up by asking me lots of questions about the appointment. But i was wanted to pee!! And then they surprise me with the cake!

Ok! I cop this pic from Ayuni's Facebook! I love the cake, !st time I love a white non-choc cake!!

I met Shuang and Huali after work at Jurong Point for dinner! They looked gorgeous! With DRESSES!!

Yup, after some hesitation, we decided to have dinner at Thai Express!