After a crying night, my eyes swollen. And i had to put on thick eye shadow to cover it up but sadly it was just too obvious. 1 eye big and another like slanted.

Then I meet Ridzuan at AMK station. And our first stop is Blood bank @HSA. We planned this since last month. Well, this is because I missed the donation drive in NYP, and he never donate blood before, therefore we decided to do something meaningful during our 3rd month anniversary.

He look nervous. Hahaha.. His iron was concentrated, 18. Well it's border high. Mine is 13.1. {60 - 160 µg/dL} (normally higher in males). Sorry that I don't know how to convert. And for those people out there who think that people who have hypertension, can not donate blood, you were wrong. I had clarified with the nurses there. They said it's ok for people who had hypertension without any hypertensive medication to donate blood. So stop the stupid myst and go for blood donation now!!! Hahaha...

The Philipino nurse was good. She help me take this photo. And she accidentally gave me 2 refreshment voucher. Hehehe..

This is what I ate for my breakfast, while waiting for him to come out. The milo is nicer than the milo that I had to pay for Kopitiam at NUH. And this is what i do during the waiting time. Camwhoring!!!

And my eyes still swollen.. And he thought I was not having enough sleep.... hmmm, can't blame him that because he really don't know that I cried the night before.

Here, our bandage. He was so slow because his blood was concentrated. Need to do something about it. Do you hear me?

We watched movie. Want to watch Karate Kid at first but only left first row. So we decided to watch Prince of Persia. It's nice. I like it. Thanks baby for treating me a movie. Then we go to Sentosa- Resort World.

where were you looking at?? Is there any beauty??

why am i always under your shadow??? The only answer is I'm SHORT.

No water??!!!

Sad... and i didn't realize that the water is coming out. What a sad face to see...

Feels like at Genting!!!

This is how a person who had double chin want to cover his chin... =.=!!

Why sad face?? Because they don't have the $2 ticket except for the ride. So we don't have a chance to go in till tomorrow. I also forget to ask them why...

 Adam & Eve. He explained this story to me. I like when he tell me stories. I like when he treat me like a little girl.

I like the way he dressed up for today!!! So smart!!!

He said when I take photo, I smiled the widest, but my face changed when finished photo taking. Hahaha..

Try out this outfit in Vivo city. Desigual. The name of this shop if I'm not mistaken, it's located beside National Geography. All the dresses there are COOL!!! And the price are COOL too. The pants: $260++. But I like it very much. The feels like Aladin's pants.

This dress also from that shop. I like it but the price.. I HATE it....

Then we head back to AMK. And we had Japanese promotion ice cream. I take red tea and he get a strawberry flavor. He was talking on phone with his sister. I also hope that I had a elder brother or sister that will take care of me. But still, I have my mom to take care of me, Zuan also will take care of me. =)

And he bought a ring for the 2 of us, with our name on it.

He asked me to choose at first but I just can't choose because non of them meet my eyes.. then he show me this pattern, and guess what? I like it because the color look like gold. 

I want to thank him for giving me such a memorable anniversary. And spend so much on me... love ya!!!

i'm a weirdo....

Actually, I don't know how to start this posting. Because everything that happen today are all jumble up. 

I felt mostly tired, because I worked 4 days full continuously. And I don't like to work at Tao Payoh because I don't like the 2 Malaysian girls full timer. I guess they also don't like me as well. Reason? Because I don't like the way they talk and attitude. Even though we are from the same country, still, I just simply don't like them. 

So when tired plus working with jerks, definitely will want to find some one to talk to. And I'm attached, of cause I'll look for my bf to complain and talk to him. So i called him. I was too naive that thought he will say something that will make me feel better, but sadly, when I ask him to say something, he said: " I don't know what to say..."

And I asked him why he don't know what to say and he answered:" I'm like that 1, Don't know what to say 1..why you want me to say something?" 

Well, i think it's my fault that I'm feeling down, and called him up, assumed that he will know what to do without telling him. Seriously I felt like killing myself today. I'm not blaming him, but just to blame myself that until now I still haven learn my lesson -- to tell them what and how i feel straight in front of them, tell them what I want them to do. Now, he is not happy, and I'm not happy too. 

Well, my tears drop a few times today. And now, I cried out silently twice. Covered my mouth with my towel to cover up my voice of crying. I don't want to let anyone see me crying like a kid who just lost her mother. And the bad thing is, I feel like an urge to slash myself again, this time, a deep slash... just wish to left a slash mark there... 

I want to apologize to my bf, i felt sorry for him for having a gf like me.

To my dear boyfriend:

After a good night sleep, I can't even remember what make me so emo last night. So please don't ask me what makes me become emo again. 

You know me, sometimes, i just can't remember what's the cause that caused me to be so down. Wanted to be left alone when feeling down or angry, it's because don't want to release my anger onto you. I just hope that you can understand. Although I might throw some tantrum to at times, but I just  want to control it. 

I know I'm contra indicate. Just that I had no idea what I should tell u, perhaps i'm not ready to be honest for anyone around me when there's some problem with them. I just don't have the courage to voice out how I feel to that person. 

It's hard to change as I already live in this kind of life for years. I know I'm using avoidance. avoid from being hate by anyone. 

I think it's due to my childhood experience that no 1 want to be my friend since primary school. Girls thought I'm a slut that always hang out with guys. (anyway, I'm a tomboy for that period of time.) I want more friend during that period of time, some of them be friend with me because of they pity me or something. No idea about that. So I had learned not to offend any of my friends. But actually, I had being "sarcastic" to friends that I think I really care about. 

I learned how to tell lies, always shut my mouth up just because I was scared to talk or voice out my opinion, because there's a lot of bad things that happen since young. Tell a lies that may just make everyone to be satisfied, why not?

I think after this, everyone who read my entry will think that I'm really vain and a lier. No one is gonna believe what I said anymore...

Resort world -- family.

Grandma from my mom's side came to Johor to settle some documentation with my uncle. So mom ask me to bring them to Resort World to have a look. So I agreed. Because almost 2 years I didn't see my grandma. Curious how she had changed.

Actually i'm not really in a very good mood to talk about how i enjoy my trip with my family now, so i'll just post my photos that we had took last night.

We were having dinner at Chinatown. The dinner itself cost us $70. So full and i like the salted egg prawn!!! 

my 2nd uncle, who is so desperate to get married... Mom say he is a good nice guy, but somehow, i find him irritating.. maybe because of age gap...

My granny, she look much more older than before. I missed her cooking. Especially pig organs soup, whereby I only drink the soup and the meat.

                                                 We head to Sentosa...

                                  I want this SHREK flush toy!!! so Greeeeennnn!!!

                                     I like Betty!! She's sexy!!

There are a few Golden award for a few people in your life. So maybe can get some for them here. $10 each i think... 

And again, I hate the service crew who took photos for us.... you should know why...

Does this look like BALLON  Madonna in pants??

O.o wow.. a lot of capsicum... (is that a correct spelling?? Lazy to search already.. @_@!!)

   I love big tummy!!! Just like how I love sleep on his tummy!!!

 Before she took this picture, I ask her to keep her tummy in.. hahaha... never the less, she's the prettiest woman i ever see!!! Love her!!!

Hahaha..I'm training my sister to become like me. 自恋... When we were resting in motel at Chinatown, grandma says something about young girls get menstruation at a very young age. And she was wondering whether my sis will be surprised with menstruation or not. Then mom said, my sis was well educated by me. Haha.. I even let her see the vaginal delivery in Youtube. Grandma said she want to see also, because she only see her delivery but not others. 

Both my uncle and grandma laugh at me when I do this post.. =.=!!

I love these!!! How I hope i can have all these on my bed!!! OMG!!!

And this bear bear!!! I like it also. But it's expensive to me. I want to try Hersley Dark Chocoloate!!! It looks nice to eat..

 

The gourmet popcorn. It smells nice. But quite pricey, can try once for the small pack. It's price different according to the size and flavor. I personally like the caramel flavor, like chewing on candies. Hahaha..

Last stop, Vivocity, due to grandma can't walk anymore, we just head back to Chinatown. Oh ya. The motel at Chinatown is a HDB room. Cost us around $70 for 1 night with 2 single beds. Quite ok if you are not a picky person. That's all for my visit at Resort World with my dear family.