Cried...

Last night, i cried...again... This time round, it's because of many reasons. Wanna know? I'll tell then..

1. My leg very pain. When i went to work, i think my wound triggered with my movement. And this time, I was nearly cry just because of my leg pain. And i was think of my mom. If i'm with her now, she'll pamper me. How warm and sweet it will be..

2. And when my leg pain, and i miss my mom, i started have all those -ve thoughts running in my mind. "if i'm from a rich family, If i'm not encountered with any financial problem, If i'm sponsored..." Plus i just received a letter from school. Says that my dad haven't pay the fees, this really added my problem. So i had decided to apply for tuition fee loan. This is to lighten my family's burden.

3. All these became worser when my thinking fly over the spot that where my ex live.. i mean in my brain...those statements... make me feel so lost and down... I'm no longer myself anymore...everything had change and also have to change...

4. When mom called me last night, i was crying and that make my nose blocked. Mom thought my flu haven't cure. She ask me to see a doctor. Mom, i'm sorry if i make you worried about me. And when you say, i have to study ahrd ands have a job as a nurse in the future. I felt guilty. Because my result was all just pass. I'm sorry...so sorry...

I don't want to be bullied by guys anymore. Mom, i miss you. Hahaha...this remind me about last night's sms. I say "love u.." But you are like shy, then just say u want to go to bed already. Mom, you are so cute, this make me love you more.