feel bad as a group leader...

I saw people as a group leader like very easy, but when it come to me, it was like omg...many things that have to worry about...like the information, the pathway, make sure we are all in the right track...etc, etc, etc...but sometimes when i ask some favor from my members, they just ignore me, i think... Because if they really care about these presentations and the favor that i ask from them, i think and sure that they will reply my sms, at least this shows they care....And at least it will make me feel better because they still willing to listen to me as a group leader.
I just read Leo's blog yesterday, and he also encounter the same problem. Maybe i'm not the worst but definately not the best. haha.. Stuck in the middle.. I was wanted to scold or talk to them, but just because i'm not good enough, therefore i always think that i'm not fit to do so. i don't want to lose to anyone. But yet i'm not putting my best, my whole effort on it.
Maybe have to thanks to H1N1, everything have to delay. Although keep on saying that next week will be a nightmare, but i'm still relaxe. I know that's not good, but since i have been here for more that 1 year, i never be seriouse on my study. Where is the passion and the determination that i had before? Where can i find it back? Who can help me? Not only talk and no action. Ohhh!! How i hate myself....
And if i talk all this thing to him, i think he will say so: u already try your best as a leader, so no need to worry... And you should think more about yourself...blah blah blah.....then he will take some example from his life, then tell me all this shit that i don't want to know. That's why i like to watch tv and talk on the phone so that it will distract mt attention..hahaha... I know its not good...
SEE...it doesn't help at all. Now i no need to share my problem with him anymore, because we already break up. Muahahahaha...bad girl...