Actually, today wasn't a bad day... Because i was in a good mood before i went for JMD session. Because i was excited to learn new dance steps and also the passion to dance. Don't ask me why i like to dance. Maybe its because of i like to move my body in a sexy way. Hahaha... But after i learnt the new steps, i feel i'm such a failure.. Because i cant followed the beat even it's a slow beat.. And i can't remember the steps.. really reduce my self-esteem. Really cause me physically and psychologically exhausted..
I spent almost the whole week and whole day in the school library to study. I never had such peaceful and lack days. Should i appreciate these kind of days? Or too boring or too wasted? I had no idea because it's exam week. I had tried my best these few days to study, but i still feel that i'm not doing my best. And mama always called me after i had my exam, make me feel more guilty.. i'm sorry..
During these few days, i just realized that most of my mutual friends look for me, only when they are bored. Well, i should know these from the beginning.. But yet i still believe there will have some nice friends out there. Was that a naive thinking? Or just keep on thinking that the world was still as beautiful as before? Just like the world that was mentioned in fairy tales.. how beautiful it is... No matter how the real world treat me, i still believe that there's still have hope for human being..
i know i'm stupid....
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