Hate him!!!

HIM... my father...

How I wish I can draw out the gene of my father!!! The blood, the gene, EVERYTHING!!! Everything that is related to him. I don't want a single thing from him to exist in my body. I don't want it!!! I hate it... It and father make my life so miserable... Not only mine, but my whole family.. To me, my whole family is: my mom, my brother and my sister. That's all. No body else. Not including my father. You may say I'm cruel, but that's the fact. The fact that I hate him so much!!!

Why I hate him?

 1. He like to blame my mom for every mistakes that we (his children) had made. Blame mom for every weak point that exist in ourselves. He never spare a thought for mom that she is also just an ordinary mother and wife, who need concern and love from her husband. But he never do so for almost 10 years. Since I become a sensible girl, he is no longer a good father to me.

2. He is selfish. All he could think of is only himself. He and his beyond reason's attitude. Not only about meals..He can scold my little sister who is only 8 years old, just because he didn't eat any ice-cream that mom had bought. Because it was finished by my sister. And I still remember there was one incident that happened when I was wanted to attend the orientation in NYP. It was a rainy day when we (father and I, on motorbike) was about to leave S'ngapore's custom. He put on the rain coat for himself and asked me:" Do you need the rain coat?" I say:" NO". In the end, I'm wet. Mom ask him why he never let me wear the raincoat while he was just send me to Boon Lay MRT and he will be going home after that. He say:" Because the raincoat is dirty."  All I can say is he is a self-centered father. Who on earth will let his own daughter get wet on the way for her first orientation?

3. He is a super duper lazy man. Dirty and smelly. Blamer. He want to have his dinner. Guess what he do in order to get his dinner. This is what he will do: Sit on the chair at the dining table and say this to my mom:" I want to have dinner." And expect my mom to scoop the rice for him. My mom was busy with her work. And he was acted like he is a king. And afetr he had finished, he just left the empty and dirty plate on the table.  I really hate his behavior. That's why I really hate to have dinner with him. And I hate when any other guy who born with or had been pampered to be behaved like this. Disgusting!!!

LAZY: work overtime for one day, he say he is very tired and don't want to work anymore. Oh gosh!! He is only 47 years old. And he had 3 kids to support! And now, his salary was being used by me, for my study. And mom's hard earn money was used for my siblings school fees and other daily expenses. And he was once promised that he have money for my studies. But now, my other family members who had to suffer due to my studies. All because of him. He want me to continue study, and I did tell him that I don't want to study. He blamed my mom, and in order not to make my mom being sandwiched between all this stupid problems, I listen to her. Continue my study. ( I know they want me to have a better future, but if all this that my mom have to face everyday, I'll never listen to her.)

4. Unreasonable. Prohibit my siblings from watching tv programmes. But he himself hide in his room to watch tv. Stupid father with idiot rules!!!

5. Threaten. He threaten my mom. If she don't want to have another baby boy (after my brother, who is now my little sister) he will find another woman to carry on his ancestral line. But unfortunately, his gen wasn't strong enough to have another son.Because of this, now, he had to earn more money to support the family. Who ask him so eager to have another son? But I don't think he care. Because a real man care. You know what I mean....I don't care what he do outside but I'll never forgive him if he dare to hurt my family..

5. A good actor. In others impression, he is a good, hardworking father, who worked really hard to earn money. Very thrifty. That was inherited from my grandmother, who is also a good actress.

I know! He is my father. And this is real and no matter how much i hate him, he is till my father from inside out. The blood that flowing in my body now also belongs to him. And I know I shouldn't post these here, but. like I had already mention in my heading, FUCK off if you don't like it!

I hate guys who had all the characteristics that similar to him. That's why I break up with my ex.. Phobia.. i rather be alone for the rest of my life if I have to live with a husband like him...