TuRtle's MuTuAl BoYfriEnd: November 2009

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Lunch time performance

Just performed for the second time in school- lunch time performance. I perform a hip hop dance on 25.11.2009.

And this is also the first time i had a video of my performance.. Hahaha. I'm so proud of myself. I'm also happy that Shuang and Huali come and support me. Thanks girls.

This is the full version for my performance.

And this is my own version of performance. Thanks to Huali, so shaky...

Anyway, I'm enjoy the performance...

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Went for a very late night movie... But this time round not going with Chin but a guy that I know from Tagged. He look nice and neat, handsome. Hahaha.. But no chance because he is a malay. Haiz.. His perfume smells nice. I like it. And i think he already have his target. Hahah.. anyway, it's really nice to have a movie with a handsome tall, nice smell guy. Hehehe... Have a nice day everyone.

Jmd.. should i go? Actually I don't feel like going because I don't want to see her face again, so irritating.. Well, tough decision because I really don't feel like going and Ting had ask me to go, I'm not really like to reject a girl's friend's requests.. hahhaha... See whether I can wake up tomorrow.. nite.. muackx!!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

i'm not alone...

Just read one of my patient/ friend's blog which I had quite a long time didn't have a look at it already. My sincere appologize to you, my dear friend. And I feel empathy with what had happen to you because the same thing also happen to me. Just that my situation wasn't as bad as yours.
"I'm really tired about friends that push me around and not really bother of how I feel inside. I think they are just acting of being my friend. It's not that I want to say about them. Just that life has been very bad for me.
Sometimes I just feel like committing suicide. But I know if I die, I'll go to hell. And if I don't die, I'll be suffering. Feel like slashing again, but people around me will get hurt. I want to feel the pain on my skin rather than on my heart. Sometimes I act like I'm okay, but I'm not. I don't want to tell people.I just want to keep them to myself and become crazy. Which I think am now crazy. I want to cry, but no, I will hold it inside. I don't want to show my feelings to anyone and everyone."
Sorry that I qouted some of your posting, but it's all represent what I felt before and sometimes, it also occur when I really depressed now...
Slashing.. a word and a way of releasing anger, depression, emotion, and when you have no one to talk to, the best way is slash yourself.. which is not recognized by health believe model. But yet, it's the good way of stress relieve. Because I had done that quite often when I'm in secondary school, quite often in doing that. Mom doesn't know about this, because I never tell her, in another way that I don't want her to know that her daughter had slashed herself due to the pressure that she gave me.
Shocked? Hahaha... I find that slashing on the skin will make you feel better when you feel pain at the slashed site. Some blood just bleed from the tiny cuts, pinkish colour between the fine cuts. Nice to see nad nice to touch and feel also.
I know and understand the feeling because I really had gone through quite a lot of things, so sometimes, when friends want to talk to me, all the feeling and advices are not sympathy but it's empathy. I need not to sympathy anyone, (like some one had said to me that he didn't need my sympathy, and I hate when someone said that to me.), I just put myself in others shoes. Tried to but somehow, it just don't work.
By the way, I'm using library's computer to post this post. And I saw a couple just had some cold war.. hahaha.. but very soon, the guy try to sweet talk to her and do a little thing that usually a little kid will do when the mother is angry. Example: pull his gf's sleeve.. cute... hahahha... then the gf show that she's not angry by just simply kiss at the bf's cheek. Well, now, they are ok like before. See, life can be so simple...

my favourite photos

These are my favourite photo.. Have a look at it and guess who are they.. Hahahha.. I guess most of you will guess it wrong... hehehe...

My mom, when she was about 30's.. with that big round spect.. she look nice...

It's me!! The picture that I had took for my first passport. Thanks to mom, who tied this coconut tree on my head.. Hahahha.. But I like it...

And this is my botak little sister, she even drewed a few saliva at the mouth there. I like her. Cute.. Muackx..

I really have to thank Ang Pei Xin for this, she scan this for me. I just gave these photos to her today, and she already scan it and send it to me already. And this is what I call efficient.. Thank you....muackx!!! This really mean a lot to me...

AFA 09

Accompanied Chin to AFA 09 and it cost me $12 for student. Quite expensive because there's nothing much in there. But all the Bandai products remind me of him, expecially the GUNDAMs.. Haiz.. Really not that good, but for Chin, it's still ok to accompany her there. Because after that we went to Bugis for some window shopping. The two of us really went crazy because feel like buying a lot of stuffs but we have no extra money for those things. Hahaha.. have a sudden urge to look for a rich boyfriend everytime I go shopping. Shopaholic..

this is the GUNDAM thingy that i talked about.

Cute right? Tamaguchi. Now they have the colour version. He used to described me as a Tamaguchi. Why? Because I'll alarmed when I'm hungry or something. Hahaha...

They did sell a device/ mechine that roll the sushi thingy. And can make real sushi with that. So easy and simple...

One of the drawing that they exhibit. It's a digital art, it's quite amazing when i saw they draw, zoomed in and erased, zoomed and draw, and zoomed and erased to get the effect that they want. So patient..