a lesson.. perhaps it's not a lesson...

Finally I can pass my skill test at one goal. I'm so happy and asked mom to give me a call. The examiner was a very kind teacher, unlike others lecturers, she's not only always remind me and also never threaten me. I was  super duper nervous till I kept doing deep breathing exercise and I was shivering all the way till it end, and it's really obvious. Anyway, I'm glad that I kept on practice on catheterization, and I'm also very happy to get that skills. I think I had to thank Sara and Shuang.. Although sometimes, they ignored me when they were supposed to assess my skill. Hahaha...  I forgive them because they supported me when I'm in need of support the most.

Had some cold shoulder with Indah and Aim, really thanks to all the projects and tests, that make us feel awkward when having meeting. Maybe it's because of my failure to lead them. That caused me in these situation. Who or what can I blame? I don't even know where had gone wrong. I did do some reflection but still, I can't think of any major mistakes that I had done, The only thing that came across my mind was, maybe I always talk things that are irrelevent about the subject? If that so, why they never voice out? I just don't understand, why when comes to Sara, they never talk back or just cut off her sentence? Are they really that hate me, am I really that sucks till I don't even have a chance to finish what I want to say?

I was thinking, every one also have their own problem, but when come to group project, why they can't think and act for the sake of group first instead of themselves. It's a group, we had gone through for 3 semesters already, but yet, everyone is still the same, even Yee Hung had change to become a better person if compare with the previous her. Then why the 2 of them still deproving? Or they just started to reveal themselves?

Shuang teach me a skill, she said, you must satire people with a smiley face, and must not let him or her realized that you are actually satiring him or her. Only then you had master the highest level of being a human. Hahaha... I'll try to do that in future, when I face them. Be prepared, I'm not a M'sian that can be bullied just like that. You had no idea who you are dealing with.

I'm Chan Lee Lee, Ng Sui Liew's daughter, will not be beaten easily by you all!!!! Be carefull!!