I had a boy friend!!!

I know him from a website. What catches my eyes on your profile is his car. It was my dream car-- kelisa. I like it so much. And when i saw his car's photo, I added him as my friend. We never talk until ... (i cant really remember how it happen already.) We chat online for don't know how long it is. Then we starts messeging each other. Then out of 1 day, I said I want to have a mutual boyfriend and he volunteered himself. That's how we started.  

If I'm not mistaken,he once asked me to be his gf, I think.. Hmmm.. Can't really remember the details. I had never came across want to be his gf. When I agree to be in a mutual relationship, I was wanted to fool around and was intended to two time. But somehow, I just don't have the courage to do so.

But I was too honest to let him know that I could never bring him home because he is a muslim. Because my family can't accept. Mom told me before. To me, my family comes first. So I had no choice but to obey. I asked him to make a decision whether he want to continue or just end our relationship after we met for 2 times. Well, he decided to continue. 

What so good about him?? Well, first of all, he likes me. Hahaha.. Funny... secondly, he is a patient guy, quiet, can bear with my temper and my mood swing. Actually not much guys in my life can do so. And even he cannot post our photos in facebook, he also can take it. He is actually like my mistress, can not be known by my family members. This, I felt so sorry for him. 

I felt so happy that he could listen to what I really need and not just believe what others say. But on the other hand, I felt so scared. I'm so scared that he pampered me so much till i loved him too much, and when there's one day that we had to separate, I can't live without him. That's why sometimes, I tried to build a wall to prevent myself from loving him too much.What a silly stupid thinking.. 

Now we had been together for around 2 months. Can't say anything too much. Because it's still too early to say so many. Hahaha.. But so far, we are quite good.