A wednesday night

I meet up with Ridzuan last night. And we had Subway again. Wow, I had been having Subway 3 times this month. Broke liao la...
Then we head back to my place and as usual we sit in the car and chat. We chat quite a lot of stuffs, and out of sudden our topic stops at marriage. He say when I get married, must remember to invite him. And then that idiot ask me not to cry when my eyes almost filled with tears. Then I ask that idiot how he know I will or want to cry, he said, because he is crying...
Actually we both know what's the outcome for our relationship. But still we choose to go on. He actually is that kind of guy that I am looking for. He can hold a baby, bath them, change baby's diapers, and can bear with my nonsense and temper. Respect me and most important, he want a pure relationship with me.
Of course, all these sounds like I like him because he can match my criteria. Well, I admit this. Hahaha...
Huali always ask me, whenever I say we will not have happy ending togather, then why we till being togather at the first place? I don't know, just the feeling want to be with this guy as long as I can. Then she ask me to negotiate with my mom, I have this thought also, but the last time I called home, I  realized that dad is always waiting for us (his children) to make mistakes then he can have a chance to balme mom for not teaching us good enough. Like I always say, he is not a good father. And I'm not a good daughter either. If I'm good enough, I'll not do this to hurt my family...
And I gave him the personality test that Mr. Clemuse gave us. Guess what kind of personality he have? Same like mine. Stable: dependable, low self esteem, shy, easy going, and all these equal to --- easy to be bullied. Hahahaa