“You prepare yourself mentally for a new day, but await a new start. You look in the mirror every day and question the person standing on the other side. You fake a smile for all to see, when really you are screaming inside. You cry when no one can see or hear you. Sometimes when someone says something that triggers a memory, you burt into tears. You just want to escape from this world of misery, your personal hell. You always get hurt no matter what, and you think you can take anymore bull shit.”
This is the result from a quiz that i took from facebook. "Who am i really?" And the result is depressed. Well, i guess i can only admit it was correct. My mood swing was fucking strong and i get depressed easily but luckily i never or should i say seldom have the suicidal thought or hearing voices.
October month almost come to the end and guess what is so blank about? My birthday post.. Even Peng Chin posted my early birthday celebration with photos but my own blog?? Nothing about it.. Why?? Because i didn't see a purpose of posting it anyway.. I'm not blaming.. Just that this October wasn't as good as I was expecting..
Work is taking place, another birthday without a boyfriend, ex boyfriend make a hoo ha in msn, insulted me till the max, and he make other girl pregnant and that girl asked money from me for an abortion. WAO!! Such a tragic month... What a great experience for me..
After all these, how can i not depressed??
Like my post, the font also depressed.. what's the color for depressed? Grey? White? Blue? Or nothing for it??
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