Questions... wonders...

I had a terrible mood swing right now... why? No idea.. I guess it's because of him... yes.. i'm in a relationship again.. Fast food relationship... what more??

It was totally different.. no heart pounding.. not experiencing any honey moon period... 

Why? I don't know... I think there's 1 common thing about guy.. sex.. yes.. it's sex..

It's killing me whenever a relationship comes to sex.. they say you can feel the love via sex.. its true but is it the only way?? 

I hate myself.. because i'm the 1 who ruined my life and my happiness... I can only blamed myself..  what more??

I hate waiting for messages, I don't expect much but at least let me know that you are busy with something and not letting me wait for nothing.. 

I hate when there's no exact timing to meet. It makes me feel so lousy.. not so.. its fucking lousy..  like i'm the last person you wanted to see.. i should be more understanding because you are working.. Am i right?

And i hate myself more.. i don't even dare to tell him all these.. I don't even dare to tell him why i'm having this terrible mood swing... and i'm fucking repeating the same mistakes that i always done... 

I just hate telling people how much i dislike the behavior... ended up suffer on my own.. i'm so useless... 

I can't feel anything anymore... I'm so lost... freaking lost...I seems like doesn't know him.. so superficial..

I think there's some good things if he never add me in facebook or chat via msn. He will not know what exactly in my mind, what i spouts nonsense... what i had done.. the immediate emotions and feelings. But it certainly is not good for a relationship..

I can't wait to get myself busy with work... just like what i always do... i think being single for 7 months does left a great impact on me... too focus on myself.. 

I promise to myself that i'm put in more effort to change because i want to cherish my own life and happiness..

My best buys on 15.05.2011

OK. All these are my best buys for the day. I was wanted to get fake eye lashes at SASA, and i only likes that particular brand of eye lashes. Maybe it's because i never try out others yet. But no worries, more to come!! 

It was on last Sunday, just finish my "duty" to helped out at Hai Yin. I'm alone but quite happy with the early celebration of Wesak Day with those kids. And guess what? They remembered my name!! LeeLee lao shi!! Hahaha! I'm so happy! It's not easy for kids to remember your name and they can even spelled it out! That's amazing!

After that I dropped by at Bishan. My 1st stop is The Faceshop. Actually I just wanted to get 3 nail polishes, as 1 for $2.90. But it was the last day of sales, 4 for $10, and i saved $1.60. I get 8 for $20, saved $2.30. These are the colours that I bought.

 And these are my 1st OPI nail polishes. 2 for RM50. I'm not sure whether i got it with higher price or it's just nice.

 These are my medicure tools. It's not that complete but basics are here. I'm still looking for some sorts of solution that can soften the cuticles. Massage scrubs, and hand lotion with fruity smell.

Then I did some price survey at Watsons and SASA.OK. I couldn't find any nice fake eye lashes with good price at Watsons, so I mingled around at SASA. I just get back the same brand of fake eye lashes. It's 10 pairs in a box, $21.90. There another cheaper one, $5.00 for 10 pairs too. But i'm kind of not into the material so I chose the expensive one. Then have to pay more la! The brand name is Sasatinnie, and I wanted Dolly looked but only sexy looked left, so I chose the sexy looked. *It's supposed to be "looked" or "mode"? But I personally like "mode"....*

OK. I guess I'm just too obsessed with those famous blogger's style, took my photos with the products. Hahah.. not much creativity shown... But I do like my skin texture in this photo. It's looked so smooth, can you tell that i'm wearing fake lashes? Nope. I don't think so. Hehe.. Fine! It's my weakness that I don't know how to use photoshop. Well FINE!! I'm lazy to learn!! Happy?? Hahah...

Then i headed back to Watsons. And guess what i accidentally found!! 

Majolica Majorca eye shadows  palettes are on sales!! Yes!! SALES!! Watsons Buffet Sales!! I love Watsons!!

I had been eyed on this brand's eye shadows for long long time ago! And this day finally came! SALES! 

Usual price for a Jewelling eye shadows palette is $27.50. And now with the Buffet Sales, it's just 3 for $50. I saved $32.50!! Isn't that amazing! I'm fucking lucky for that Sunday!

 And apple mask from Taiwan, it's $14.90. 10 pieces inside, so 1 piece of mask cost me like $1.49. With $1.49 i can be a pretty lady with smaller pores!! Hahaha!! I love cheap stuffs! I'm a cheapo, i know.. no need to give me this face =_= haha!!

The total spending was $108.80. Wow!! This is the fastest way to get broke!! But with all these purchases, I guess they can last me for the next 6 month?? But definitely not the masks.

And now!! It's camwhore time!! It doesn't turned up as nice as before. As in the skill, the eyes, the smile, fucking fake la!! Let's see ok?

                                                   Fake smile and stoned! nose become bigger!!

                                              Can see?? My fake lashes.... Not so obvious huh...

I like this photo! It look so innocent!! I said "LOOKED" Fine!! I'm not innocent in nature! I'm a bitch happy? But I'm a pretty sexy bitch!! Kakaka!! =)

Next challenges that i'm going to face are:

1. keep long hair. Lots of my close friends said i cant keep long hair. Even mom said so. But i wanted to prove to them that i can although i have the urge to cut my hair again =(

2.medicure and pedicure. Still learning in process. I wanted to starts a small business like went over customer's house to do the treatment for them. But as all know, my self confident is fucking low, and i'm scared that i cant make it and couldn't find my way there! hahah... that's what i most worried about>>> GET LOST IN SG!! 

3. Part time job. Intended to go back to Soup Restaurant to work. But i'm not sure whether I'll wear myself out. Time!! All i need is just do a proper schedule then i should be safe...

4. To continue my freezed saving plan with Prudential! I must save right? So that i'll have money to get a scooter for myself! A pink scooter! Muahah!!

5. To gain more working experience! Excited to start work tomorrow but I'm nervous too as I know almost nothing. Starts from zero just like the 1st time i came to SG!! So blurred! I will post about my 1st time being enrolled in NYP on the next post! If i have time lah.. =X

Ok, Finally all the best to myself and to those humans that I concerned about!! I'll try my best to achieve my goal in life! Thank you for being to patience to my CRAPS!!

I want!! I want!!

I want fucking lots of things!! Especially make up stuffs..I kept on thinking should i practice a full make up whenever i go out?? Like starts with foundation, blushers, lipsticks and lip gloss. Usually I'll only put on eye shadows and mascara, more on natural and without any fake accessories on my face. So called fake accessories are like fake eye lashes, double eye lid stickers but eye lid fibre is much more popular now and looked much more natural and better. But currently I'm kind of obsess on fake eye lashes. Well, I want to try dolly looked and put on fake lower eye lid lashes. And try to put on full make ups which i'm lacked of right now. I love Maybelline products. But i'm still trying to save up some money to get these foundations and blushers. This post is more like my dream.. So DREAM ON!!

These are only a few products that i found online. Actually Maybelline have whole series of make ups products but if considered the prices, I'm not sure whether its worth my money as i never used them before. I'm not sure which kind of foundation suits me, as i'm kind of sweaty person so i'm scared that i might waste my money after purchase them and just left there.
Ok. Now i want fake eye lashes. I want some dolly looked. Like this:

Perhaps I should starts with getting these kind of fake lashes:

Muahahah!! Ok!! I'm having a fucking early day dream. And i was wishing to change my image from this to this:

Hahaha!! Maybe PHOTOSHOP really needed to change me from ugly Betty to pretty Ayumi Hamasaki.
But no worry. I believe in " There's no UGLY woman in this world, only LAZY woman." I totally agreed with this. As lazy woman will totally lose if they don't work hard in earning more income, lazy in using or applying all these beauty products on their face!! I think none of these should or can be short cut unless, you were born with golden key in your hands. Then you can sure enjoy all the best of beauty products in the world.

One of my friend say:" Do you know why those rich woman/ man willing to spend more money on expensive products? It's because they believed in QUALITY not QUANTITY." I'm speechless because I think she was right. But what about people like us? Who is still studying and wanted to get pretty? Or who is poor like hell and still wanted to be pretty?
Actually no worry for that!! People like us, like you and me, who are stingy to get expensive products like SK2, Lancome, or other series of products that cost you $400++, and according to those salesperson, the whole series can last you for 6 months. I'm not sure whether any one of my friend who read this will want to buy these products, but surely not for me.
OK. Enough of craps. The solution is: Get $50 and go to Fairprice or any other organic shops, get some organic tomatoes, olive oil, eggs, brown sugar and fine salt. Some are for you to consume of course, but some can be used as your own beauty products.
For example, Organic tomatoes contained anti-oxidants, good for skin as food, and it can become an organic scrubs if combine it with brown sugar. You can find out more with video by Michelle Phan aka Rice Bunny. I tried the brown sugar scrub and it was great. But not to do it too often. Have to remember to really clean up the bathroom before you left because will leads to a lot of ants visit!!
Well. I love Michelle Phan's video!!
Lets work hard for a better skin and future!!

Ridiculous...

Another funny ridiculous message from tagged.com.
Sent by a guy named Timo, 26 chines male. Profile said that photo will be given upon request. It seems like he is scared of people will found out who he is but yet he is still doing this kind of business. And i accidentally deleted his message when i clicked to view his profile. So this is how it goes:


Little weirdo: hi.. can u resend me ur 1st msg tat u sent me?? i accidentally deleted it b4 i could read it.. thx..


Timo: haha okok no prob. i was askin whether u be interested in freelance?


Little weirdo: wat kind of freelance??


Timo: i know this is crazy but freelance in providing services like handjob blowjob or everythin but all up to ur comfort level and b4 u commit i can show u how i look like first and it discreet and of cos with protection ...and also u can name wat u willin to do and not willin to do or wat u like and dislike..i know it crazy and everythin but hope u r willin do get back to me ok thanks.


Little weirdo: Hmmm... How much is it??


Timo: well im not so rich only pay 50 per hr though u willin to do?


little weirdo: How should i do it??


Timo: that easy we will meet up n proceed to a hotel lor lol...then i pay u 100 for 2 hrs u do wat i ask u to do for me that all...and of cos with condoms ....less when doin blowjob ...


little weirdo: But do u mind to do it with a guy? Coz i'm a guy.


Timo: wtf?

little weirdo: ouh.. so u only want to do it with girl??

timo: of cos la ..............but ur pic show u r a gal leh

little weirdo: Its me, i undergone a transexual surgery few yrs ago.  But still hv my penis with me. so how?? do u still want it?

Timo: no thank u enjoy urself then bb

Hahahah!!! This is damn fun! I hope he will learned his lesson that not to believe on what is posted in any website!! And what's more is never messed up with LITTLE WEIRDO!! 

I hope he will not see this post or else I had no idea how he will react towards this. Erm, I think i had to state this clear.. I'm not trying to make all this huge, but its part of my life to encounter all these funny things!! All these will always pull me back on earth despite just blindly believe how pretty this world is deep down in my heart. And it's also is an entertainment for my friends!! 

my wonders..

I was wondering why he didn't reply my sms... i asked him, he said:" No leh, your last msg was" Hmmm, ok."
I was so speechless... Well, looks like i still have a lot of things need to learn about this man...
I hope we can work something out...

Another stupid message.

Well, i received this message via Tagged.com. This is fucking funny!!! Let me show you guys the message, but some of the email address that he sent me, i didn't put in because i respect his privacy.. wakakaka...

*Hi sweet I am sorry to disturb you I am from Pakistan I like you and want marry with you forever and spend my rest of life with you in your country forever if you agree with me so now we are the friend after knowing each other I need your final decision really I am serious honest loving sincere no game no lie I saw your good profile and beautiful smart young picture I am working in the office or University of Engineering from the last 30 years I am permanent Govt employee., I like your country, people, tradition,   People and free style life. Honey I am have send the same message to another women who will be meet me first than I will be with him.  I am soft spoken straightforward. I Accept your all terms and condition I don’t want to waist your valuable time.  My sweet lovely friend I like you if you agree with me everything I will be send you by your email address. Thanks.

I think  this guy really have serious migration problem... Maybe he just want to get married over here like how Singaporean guy went over Vietnam to get a wife.. 

I'm sorry Mr. Pakistan, I don't like a guy like you, and your age, is like my father's age. I don't think i can have sex with a guy like my father.. Eeewww.. Disgusting!!! And so sorry, I can't afford to take care of you anyway, because I can't even take a very good care of myself in real life man!! Maybe you should try harder by sending more young girl messages like you mentioned in your message. Thanks.