Crazy days!!

I guess my biggest interest of living now will be download more photography apps and camwhore!! Love camwhore with all the instant effect and load them to Facebook without all the transferring. Perhaps camera should have this function!! Hahaha!!
I actually cried in the mrt yesterday.. Tears continue dropping even I'm in the causeway bus, it just fall like a water fall with no control. Plus late sleeping, my eyes swollen like a curry puff!! Dark and puffy!! But with no curry flavor of cause...
This is how I looked like early in the morning when I reached clinic...



Mom scolded bro last night. I have no idea how to help mom and bro. Such a big failure as the eldest daughter and sister. Sad! Worry! But what else can I do except talk to bro about the future and study. Advices already given but no improvement. Is it because of he is still too young, still a pea sized brain?? Perhaps tougher life will help him to develop the brain size? Scolding and canning ain't work for a big size guy, what to do when we tried fucking hard to save his future but he insist to destroy it with his own pea size brain? It's kind of ridiculous for me to sacrifice and pretend to be a good sister, a good role model!! Argh!! Maybe what I can do is be more strict to him when he ask me to get something for him..
Save my pocket!! Muahah,, what kind of sister I am?? Sucks!!




And have a look at my funny sister!! Shameless!!!
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Location:In the bus...

2nd fucking tiring week!!

1st few days still tolerable, today is just the starts of the 2nd week. I'm like a fucking dead zombie!!
Freaking tiring like no body's business!! Only now I realized how hard to survive in this reality!!
6 more weeks to go before I can move back to sg!! Mustn't fall sick!!
Almost 2 months working at REMC, work load getting more and more... So much work but so little rest.. I can't wait for public holiday so that I can sleep the whole fucking day!!


Love u mom!! Thx for the food!!
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Day 2 journey to the north

Day 2!! How do i looked? Fresh enough? I guess so.. Maybe its because of mom's fantastic cooking that she fed me for 2 days!! Love her cooking!!



Ok!! Me after work in the train!! How was it? Still ok right? Except for my lower limb pain as in lower back if i'm not worng.. I think the last time i have this problem is when i'm with Ridzuan. He bought me a few koyok, and it touched my heart loads because no 1 will really care and surprise me like he did.
Leelee!! Wake up!! It's over!!
Alright!! I'm fucking awake ok?? Just that the pain reminded me of him..
Then do something to make the pain go away and forget about him!! You're such a big fucking idiot, big fat sotong head!!
Alright!! Stop scolding me!!



Leelee is crazy.. Too much self talking!! Split personality... Omg!!
Maybe one day i can act a short video on me self talking!!! Muhahahah!!

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1st day of traveling!

1st day of traveling from m'sia to sg. Freaking tiring... Well, as usual, those passengers are idiots who don't know how to give ways or be more clever or what so ever the term that they usually use, blocking the main door, the bus driver didn't want to depart as there's still have lots of other pathetic passangers like me stuck out there. But to them, passangers in the bus, was wondering and angry because they were stucked there for quite some time. As if they were more co-operating, maybe they can reach sg earlier than the schedule. Stupid adults!!!
I reached work place quite early today. Aurea came and asked "why are you so early today? Aren't you work 10-7pm? How can you come at your own timing?" haiz.. Then joanne also ask me why am i came over so early? Sucks.. Sotong head me feel like am i came at the wrong timing?? After that i ask diana as i remember she ask me to come over at 8.30am as they need more ppl for the whole month..
Leelee!! You must have more confident!! If not how are you going to survive in this world??
Ok.. I know.. Hahah
Now let you all see my pretty face before start of work..






That's all for today!! Love mom's cooking! Freaking full!!

My new hot stuff

I just bought a ipad 2. I'm kind of happy and maybe a little sad..
Happy its because i can finally get something nice to be cool with..
Sad because my wallet burned a big fucking hole. And starhub customer service sucks like hell!! When the lady served me, how i hope Wan can be with me, he will surely fuck that girl really upside down..
Yesterday wasnn't my day. Qeue up, pending just because i don't have sg address, they don't allow me to sign up a new line. Shit like hell. And the worse thing is my vulgarity to the max.. Luckily it's peng chin who accompanied me, if for my other friends, they will sure get angry with me.
Alright, enough of talking. Let have a look at mt new ipad 2 case. I can't take my ipad 2 with ipad, so ipad just looked like an ipad2 lo.. Hahaha



My kitty casing!!! Love it to the max!! And the price too... Cheapskate like me.. Heart-ache because it cost me $67.90, both casing and screen protector.. I swear i'm gonna use it for at least 6 months...
Then the 1st batch of photos using my ipad!!!





















Ok.. How's it?? So far so good la..
Shall i name my ipad?? Kitty pad? Eeww.. It sounds like ladies pad... What about baby kitty?? But is it a must to name it?? Never mind..
Not owning an iphone, but ipad will also can do a great job for me.. I hope my sister will have good time playing the games.. And mom will not scold me.. And hereby, i announce myself as REAL BROKE!!!

1st outing with REMC fellows!!

This is my 1st time hanging around with Ayunie and Yie Ting! It's fun to hang around with them because they are really polite unlike me. And we were hanging around Arab street!! =) And some are taken with Yie Ting in the clinic. Oh well, i know you guys know how to differentiate between indoors and outdoors right? so just enjoy all these nice photos!!

 Actually still hv lots of nice phots but not gonna post all here, can go to facebook and have a browse!!

Although Ayunie doesnt have a great body shape but she has lots great posts for cool photos shootings!! Yie Ting is a nice girl who concern about her colleagues!! Glad to have such a bunch of good colleagues!! Makes my life in REMC more meaningful now!! Happy working!!

Blame yourself..

Hey!! You brought all these to yourself! Remember?? 

Well.. What to do when i felt comfortable walking around the street from Orchard- somerset- dhouby ghout- clark quay- woodlands??

Ever since the day i know him? Lee lee, your a fucking idiot!!

Ok fine!! I'll refrain myself from seeing him on weekdays!! 

Ouh!! I miss mommy... Should I go home next week? But if i go home next week, what about the sunday class? Who's going to teach them? Well, I'm not trying to think high about myself but no1 know the dance except me although I myself can't really remember well the dance steps.. How??

Life's full with fucking dilemma and need to make loads of choices.. But what to do when your not the only god in your life. There's loads of factors that affect your emotions, decisions, perspectives, and most of all, their actions will really really affect your respects to them.

I love to say "from now on, if she/he #$%%, i'm sure i'm gonna #$$%%^

In the end, i'm just a bitch with a big mouth who like to talk big! Some1 says m'sian like to talk big and zero action. Hmm!! Leelee, can please be nice? You're such a bitch you know. Well, I know but I cant help it. There's a fucking devil in me. The inner me. =.=

The next thing is move house. Haiz.. I cant wait to move out and stay with PC, but PC currently has no money. If i pay all the rental thingy for her 1st, I'll be broke like real broke.. So as a conclusion, be a rich fellow next life!! Or I should move back to m'sia and come back and forth between m'sia n sg? I really miss mommy.. should i consult her about this? but i don't wanna make her worry again... Sian!!!

Next question is: Actually this is kind of big question.. what do i want in my life? As in this life? People like to ask me to move on.. Am i not moving on? or i'm still stepping on the ground which make me looked like i'm moving on? Just like shuffle.. Muahah...

Life's tiring.. even though I kept on go to the Buddhist association, but my suicidal thought has not disappear... What the point of being good when i'm there and being a slut when i'm not? A good question to ask either..

If i really look into my life, I should be happy because i have lots of things. Like, i do not have to beg for food and money, i have all my organs in my body, nothing extra nothing missing. I have double eye lids, a pretty mouth although extra hair growing. I'm not like fucking fat till can't even fit into a skinny jeans which is size 30. I can still afford a meal per day, my family is still alive. I got a job although sometimes i need to transform into a octopus.. i know and i can put on a nice make up on my face, i know how to dress up, i have a least 3 nice shoes, 10 nice outfits, a laptop full with stickers. 

Fine!! I'll be satisfied with what I have and what I have extra!! Cheers to the world!!