Blame yourself..

Hey!! You brought all these to yourself! Remember?? 

Well.. What to do when i felt comfortable walking around the street from Orchard- somerset- dhouby ghout- clark quay- woodlands??

Ever since the day i know him? Lee lee, your a fucking idiot!!

Ok fine!! I'll refrain myself from seeing him on weekdays!! 

Ouh!! I miss mommy... Should I go home next week? But if i go home next week, what about the sunday class? Who's going to teach them? Well, I'm not trying to think high about myself but no1 know the dance except me although I myself can't really remember well the dance steps.. How??

Life's full with fucking dilemma and need to make loads of choices.. But what to do when your not the only god in your life. There's loads of factors that affect your emotions, decisions, perspectives, and most of all, their actions will really really affect your respects to them.

I love to say "from now on, if she/he #$%%, i'm sure i'm gonna #$$%%^

In the end, i'm just a bitch with a big mouth who like to talk big! Some1 says m'sian like to talk big and zero action. Hmm!! Leelee, can please be nice? You're such a bitch you know. Well, I know but I cant help it. There's a fucking devil in me. The inner me. =.=

The next thing is move house. Haiz.. I cant wait to move out and stay with PC, but PC currently has no money. If i pay all the rental thingy for her 1st, I'll be broke like real broke.. So as a conclusion, be a rich fellow next life!! Or I should move back to m'sia and come back and forth between m'sia n sg? I really miss mommy.. should i consult her about this? but i don't wanna make her worry again... Sian!!!

Next question is: Actually this is kind of big question.. what do i want in my life? As in this life? People like to ask me to move on.. Am i not moving on? or i'm still stepping on the ground which make me looked like i'm moving on? Just like shuffle.. Muahah...

Life's tiring.. even though I kept on go to the Buddhist association, but my suicidal thought has not disappear... What the point of being good when i'm there and being a slut when i'm not? A good question to ask either..

If i really look into my life, I should be happy because i have lots of things. Like, i do not have to beg for food and money, i have all my organs in my body, nothing extra nothing missing. I have double eye lids, a pretty mouth although extra hair growing. I'm not like fucking fat till can't even fit into a skinny jeans which is size 30. I can still afford a meal per day, my family is still alive. I got a job although sometimes i need to transform into a octopus.. i know and i can put on a nice make up on my face, i know how to dress up, i have a least 3 nice shoes, 10 nice outfits, a laptop full with stickers. 

Fine!! I'll be satisfied with what I have and what I have extra!! Cheers to the world!!