playing with fire

I met him after 1 yr.. He didn't changed much except for being a damn smoker!! He changed his car, from small to big..
We meet up after 1 yr.. I have lots of imagination before i met him. Most of them happened.. I cried.. we kissed, cuddled.. He asked me why am i crying.. How can i answer this silly question..
He said he know that i missed him from the way i kiss. Then don't ask that silly question why am i crying.. He is a big fat idiot..
Promised to meet up again.. And i think we are playing with fire..
Meet up as friend, want to meet up more often, then more and more often, feel jealous when his phone rang, kept on persuading myself  "we are impossible", "i'm just his friend", "don't ever think about that". Sooner or later i'll want more from him...
I don't know how honest he is when we meet up.. but at least i'm honest.. "no one but him".
After that night, i feel that i'm full with love.. but after that night, i know one day, i have to wake up.. he is not mine..
Family and love, i chose family.. That's what i should bear in mind..
Even now, I miss him still.. Sickening leelee... always love the wrong person...

my simple birthday celebration

10th Oct 2011... I officially turn into 23 yrs old. Doesn't sounds old at all.. Hmm.. I must say that I had the most birthday cakes ever eaten among my whole life till 23 yrs!!

Total 3 cakes for myself, 1 cake for Ayuni's birthday which is today. Another 1 will be mom's.

On 8th Oct, Katija came over to my house for BBQ for the 1st time after we know each other for more than 3 yrs. I'm happy that she can make it for me. Thanks LOVE!!

No present on 8th Oct, but I have a total of RM300 of Ang Pao!! Muahaha

After that Katija went back to Singapore and I continue to stay at home rotting!!!



On 10th Oct, the actual day of my birthday. I went to work as usual, it's a Monday!! Well, Monday was busy. I thought they were forgotten about my birthday as everyone was freaking busy with their work. I wanted to have lunch with Ayuni but she rejected me because she had lots of things to finish up. Then I had my lunch with Poh Lian instead. I guess i was being pampered by Yi Teng as she accompanied me for lunch everyday during my night. After busying with all the work, finally i can breath, Ayuni caught me up by asking me lots of questions about the appointment. But i was wanted to pee!! And then they surprise me with the cake!

Ok! I cop this pic from Ayuni's Facebook! I love the cake, !st time I love a white non-choc cake!!

I met Shuang and Huali after work at Jurong Point for dinner! They looked gorgeous! With DRESSES!!

Yup, after some hesitation, we decided to have dinner at Thai Express!