IMH...
First week in the IMH had passed.. 4 more days to go. During this week of attachment to IMH, i do learn quite a few things, not as much as in the hospital. But yet knowing the real psychiatric patients behavior and how they react, what are their daily routine. Interesting but had to always watch my back. Because they can turned violent at any time without any signs and symptoms. I had some fence there.. Hahaha.. Luckily I'm older than them. So they are not that into me. Anyway, although they are mentally ill but they are able to help each others when others need help for daily activities like bath and lunch time. Anyway, I had been grab twice by a mentally retarded patient. OK.. don't think too much.. It's grabbed my hand not other places. Surprisingly, I don't even feel scared when he grabbed my hand, but I only scared that he pulled my hand towards his penis. That's all.
p/s: I was wondering. Why am i have no feeling when my hand was being grabbed by the patient? Maybe no more feeling when I was being touched or anyone who come near to me. Is it a good thing or psychiatric problems.. hmm... Maybe Mr. Ibrahim can lead me to the answer..
First week in the IMH had passed.. 4 more days to go. During this week of attachment to IMH, i do learn quite a few things, not as much as in the hospital. But yet knowing the real psychiatric patients behavior and how they react, what are their daily routine. Interesting but had to always watch my back. Because they can turned violent at any time without any signs and symptoms. I had some fence there.. Hahaha.. Luckily I'm older than them. So they are not that into me. Anyway, although they are mentally ill but they are able to help each others when others need help for daily activities like bath and lunch time. Anyway, I had been grab twice by a mentally retarded patient. OK.. don't think too much.. It's grabbed my hand not other places. Surprisingly, I don't even feel scared when he grabbed my hand, but I only scared that he pulled my hand towards his penis. That's all.
p/s: I was wondering. Why am i have no feeling when my hand was being grabbed by the patient? Maybe no more feeling when I was being touched or anyone who come near to me. Is it a good thing or psychiatric problems.. hmm... Maybe Mr. Ibrahim can lead me to the answer..
Love story..
Hahaha... I don't like to work with guys because I know I will fall in love easily. So I always remind myself about all the mistakes that i had made in the past. Maybe I'm too sensitive, I sense that the guy likes me, but he is a Malay, he had a very funny name and hair. Haha.. I think it's a false feeling. Like I said, I had no more feeling when people touched me, so I was also wondering, he lied on my shoulder when he was sleeping, is he purposely did that or just accidentally dropped his head on my shoulder? "Dropped his head" haha.. sounds wrong... But anyway, I like this kind of ambiguous feeling.
When I told Chin about my numbness towards guys who came near me, she suggested that I looked for another guy to start a new relationship. Although I was intended to do so, but in the end I withdrawned. The reason is I can't find a better guy, who is much more better than him. As gentleman as he was, who always send me home.. Hmmm, if that's the case, I might as well have a driver boyfriend, then he cam always send me home.. Funny.. Must be wondering if he was that good, why are we break up at the first place? Because I am a selfish girl..
Anyway, I like to make friends with Malay guys, they are funny and childish.. Hahaha.. some Malay guys, not all.. Some are truly sucks... Believe me, really sucks...
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