i need.. i have to..

He rejected me, i asked him what he mean by saying "not now" when i asked him "who am I to you now?"

He said he is not ready for anything, let us be friends.

I had waited for 1 whole week, no one let me waited for so long, heart broken. It bleed. I cried out like a baby, even though I kept remind myself that do not have hope for him.

and he told me i wanted everything to be fast, but he can't. If that so, why he treat me like his gf during our outing?? If he was not prepared, just don't touch me. Please don't give me hope and then just withdraw it from me like it was just as easy as it seen. It was not easy to forget about you, it took me a longer time than i could expected. Haiz.. I am so complicated...