thanks

I just want to say thanks to him, make me realize that how the real world is, full with myst and lies. All these tests will just prepare me to be a stronger girl.

Heart pain and heart broken whenever I missed him. This is harder than what I can imagine. I felt so tiny, this feeling.. i had it before, when I was 18.. It's terrible, I cried like hell, and mom knew it, I just cant hide it from her, told her that I loved him so much that I want to give it a try by begging him back to me.. But I wasn't succeed. Because he already had a new girlfriend but he didn't dare to let me know, but still told me that he still have feeling for me. What a sucks guy he is, if he wasn't a friend that we grow up together since childhood, I'll definately kicked his little brother.

And after a few years, that feeling came back again. And again, I felt so tiny, sometimes, feel that I have to step back and give in in relationship, but somehow, it just make me feel tiny and not worth it. Can some one please tell me what is worth it and what is not? I'm so confused. Should just ask for the truth or just let the truth blind my eyes and heart? I'm not that kind of person who like to hide from the truth. But yet, even though he told me the truth, will there any changes that will be made? I think it will change my life, from knowing nothing to realize everything.