at work place...

I forget to record this...

At soup restaurant, City Square Mall's branch, all the utensils are glass.

First day of work, I felt like all my fingers are half cooked. Because the tea are all very hot. 

And today, I broke the glasses. They place the glasses on the top of the shelf, and as you all know, I'm a short turtle.. And i really need to be tip toe in order to take the glasses. And when I try to put it back, i was careless enough to drop the glasses. So from top, the glass drop on my forehead, and chips of the glasses drop into my shirt, and guess what? It cut my belly and i realized it when i change during my break time... hahaha... just don't feel the pain. And my forehead now is in mildly mild pain when touch.. i think it's a bit blue black... 

not enough time...

It's time for me to complain again...

I had work like almost everyday since last 2 weeks. So tired, I don't know why am I doing this, but it seems like I can't reject work. Maybe I had already get used to work, and when I reject any work opportunity, I'll feel wasted that why can't I take up the job, lost a chance to earn money again...

Currently work in Soup restaurant, i admit that I don't like to work there at first, because workers in branch at Woodland is bad. Probably it's my facial expression that make them feel uncomfortable with. That's why they react the same way. 

But now, when I went to other branches, workers there are quite nice, in fact they are more strict and quite demanding. They teach me quite a lot of stuffs in FnB. Which will make me hate chinese dining culture more. Haiz... what to do? Chinese are still troublesome as usual. This is one of the reason why sometimes i don't like chinese.

Mom called me last night, she said every time she call me, I'm working. And she ask me whether I had enough sleep or not, I'm happy that she show her concern to me. Make me feel warm and energetic. 

Plus Zuan finished his NS already, and he will have extra time for me. Quite happy with that too, but just worry that he don't have enough money to spent. And he just transferred $100 to my account. I'm happy and worry. Happy because he is the first BF that transferred money for me to spend, worry because I really scared that he will overspend. 

I bought a mascara today and became a member of Watson too. Was hesitate whether want to be a member, but due to the "20% discount only for member",  i sign up. Because I'm run out of  good mascara already. And I was considering Majolica Majorca's products. A bit expensive if no discount, but the products is really good. And I really like the comb like mascara, I tried the tester, and WOW!!! It's really amazing... It's good for the lower eye lashes. 

 

This is the mascara that I bought, not the same with what I had tested on. But i really hope it won't disappoint me like Maybeline did.

And my eye lashes will look like the first one if i use it. But I want to wait till the Maybeline finished first and throw away all those useless mascara. Hahaha... but I do lack of brown colour eye shadow. Maybe can buy one for Majolica Majorca. Hahaha... I like it!!!

Ok.. I need to go bath now, tomorrow still need to work... =(

1st beach with Zuan

Zuan and I went to Sentosa for some tanning on last Sunday. It's our 2nd month anniversary. We drove to Habourfront Centre to park the car, then we took train there. 

We had our breakfast there at Banquet. Our breakfast cost us around $10. Then we head to Sentosa Siloso Beach.  Train cost us $6.

                                                              this is Zuan and me!!!

                                                 i don't like this picture.. look like a pig....

Siloso Beach!!! Actually we wanted to go to Pahlawan Bearch but because we took the wrong tram that just go to Siloso Beach, then we just stay there. And there's quit a lot of muscle guys and bikini girls. I think I had more advantage than he have because I can look at both guys and girls, while he only like to had a look at bikini girl. Hahahah...And he said he don't know whether he should be happy or be jealous. Happy because I allow him to look at bikini hot girl. Jealous because I look at both hot guys and hot girls. 

Now we changed to swim suit. Too bad I can't fit into a bikini. Hahahaha... or else will be a lot easier if I want to sun tan.

                                         I like the skin colour. And of course I like my tattoo more.

                                                       Big Fat Mermaid with 2 legs!!!

We left the beach around 2pm. Because our energy level are low. So we went for our lunch. Supposedly we want to eat Mc Donald but sadly in Vivo City don't have Mc so we just eat Burger King. And again it just cost us around $12. Yippeee!!!

Well, after Burger King, Zuan said he want to treat me Berry & don't know what ice cream. But I refused because it's expensive. In the end we also had ice cream but it's Oreo Mcflurry. 

The day that we spent together, I had a lot of fun. Even though it's just a simple beach-ing. We talked a lot about our past and love history... =_=!!! And we just spent around $40 for the 2 of us.. Yay!! I like budget outing!!!

Can't be denied that we just started for not long, so whatever that we do, we will feel sweet. Hmmm... then we shall see how long our relationship can last this time.

Oh ya.. before I forget, in vivo city, top floor, they have Pet Village, It's a nice place for pet lovers. And I saw a lot of cute stuffs for pets. And DOGS!!! I want to have 1 when I live in my own HDB... Maybe 20 yrs later.. muahahaha..

And Zuan saw a pearl white hamster.. it's cute... super cute...

things that can make me happy for a moment...

Things that can make me happy: 

#1 money.. hahahah.. only that can really make me happy!!!

#2 sleep with my mom

And can you believe that I actually cried 3 times today?? Yet, Huali, Shuangshuang and Wang Min thought I was acting.. 

Quite a long time I didn't cry. I wanted to cry these few days but I tried my best not to. But now, I can't hold my tears anymore. 

Reason? Probably is I don't have money anymore, the work place sucks. And maybe it's because I felt tired already. 

Plus these few days, lectures that we learned all about gerontology --> elderly. How they were not well taken care of...

And at that time being, I thought of my mom.. i missed her a lot.. I hope when she get old, i had a chance to take a good care of her.

Just now I browse through all my pictures in Facebook. I recalled all the pictures that i took, where, when, with who, and all i can remember are those sweet memories.. And I felt much more better now.. As in, I had a good life now..although I don't have extra money to do extra things, but I still can buy myself a lunch and dinner... maybe I should compare myself with those children who want to work but don't even have an opportunity to work, I'm far away too pampered... Shouldn't give up easily...

Perhaps, I just not easy to satisfied with what I have right now.. I want more...

what i wish for....

I worked these few days.. The more I work, the more I felt depressed... 

Tiredness makes me want to give up.. the more i work, the more i felt the worthlessness of everything...

Not that I want to be so gray or something, but sometimes, life left you with no choice but  force you to become more realistic... 

Who don't want to have sweet dream every night they sleep? Who don't want to spent more time with their loved one? Who will want to migrate to another country for work if their own country have a better future? Who want to be called a foreigner while they can be addressed as local in their own country? Who want to left their homes and travel all the way here, paying money to work here if they can earn more or have a better life in their own country? Why are we want to come here to study and work, and those so called citizen of  *** like to ask us this question: why did you come here? 

I felt sad whenever or whoever ask me this kind of "stupid" question. And whenever people said foreigners like to come here and work...and this and that... I felt so sad and so angry.. Maybe it's because I don't see Singapore as my home... or something...

But what to do??? My own country can't provide me a better future.. I missed you, mom... <3

do what you had promise...

do not promise or say anything that you will do if you are not sure whether you can fulfill it. And again, I'll really really will believe and wait for it to happen.

For a very simple example, if you say you will message me, and i'll really wait for your message, even I'm really very sleepy now... please don't torture me like this, can you??

what a stupid decision...

Why i say so? Because i bought things without using my brain. And bought a black long pants that isn't my size.. What am i thinking at that time? And I also bought a T- shirt that i shouldn't buy because of the price. One is $24.95 and another one is only $5. When the cashier ask me whether I want to take or not, I should say no, But my mouth said: YES!!! What a stupid mouth to say that. And guess what? I check after I bought it, it had no big different. I'm so sad... Till now i'm still blaming myself why I bought that T- shirt...

And now it's only 2nd of May. I only left with $105 in my account. And on 5th of May, my account will be deduct $75. Which means I only left with $30 to spend for this whole month.. Holy shit.  

Actually, I always unconsciously over spent although I always save.. I hate myself... 

Only can hope that my pay is twice a month. If not, I'll have to delay my rental. Hope that fucking landlord will not make noise.. 

ok.. all these happen because of my careless.. sian la... how to save?? OMG!!!.. Feel like killing myself.. 

Well, i think people will laugh at me after all these.. hahaha...

Never mind, cant be bother with what they think.. need to think of who wanna take my pants.. i like that pants very much... so sad.... = (