what i wish for....

I worked these few days.. The more I work, the more I felt depressed... 

Tiredness makes me want to give up.. the more i work, the more i felt the worthlessness of everything...

Not that I want to be so gray or something, but sometimes, life left you with no choice but  force you to become more realistic... 

Who don't want to have sweet dream every night they sleep? Who don't want to spent more time with their loved one? Who will want to migrate to another country for work if their own country have a better future? Who want to be called a foreigner while they can be addressed as local in their own country? Who want to left their homes and travel all the way here, paying money to work here if they can earn more or have a better life in their own country? Why are we want to come here to study and work, and those so called citizen of  *** like to ask us this question: why did you come here? 

I felt sad whenever or whoever ask me this kind of "stupid" question. And whenever people said foreigners like to come here and work...and this and that... I felt so sad and so angry.. Maybe it's because I don't see Singapore as my home... or something...

But what to do??? My own country can't provide me a better future.. I missed you, mom... <3