if...

If the man in my family is capable.. i guess i will not look for warmth outside..

If the man in my family is capable, mom and i will not do guys work...

If the man in my family is capable, my family will not have to suffer like this..

If the man in my family is capable, we will not need to be humiliate by other family members..

I want to tell my brother, i was once being looked down by my father, he think i'm only good in fashioning, buy new clothes and put on make ups. He only saw this side of me. I used 1 year time to prove that i'm not that kind of girl. I want to let him know that I'm not only good in these, but I'm good in academic too. I scored 4 A's in SPM. He shut himself up and applied Singapore PR for me. And now I realized that by scoring all these, not only to prove it to my father, but also to help my mom who had always defend me whenever my father scolded her for not teaching me well enough. What I had done for my SPM, is the result of what i have right now. Continue studying overseas. I hope my brother will realize one day, that what mom forced us to do isn't wrong. Maybe the wrong method by nagging non stop, scolding, it is for our own good. I had went through all these that's why i said, mom was right. What we do now, is what we will get for our future. And our future, she's only sharing it with us, not own it for us. 

Maybe my brother will not read this, but i do hope 1 day, he will realize, before it's really too late...