stupid things that i had done 2day..

What is the stupid things i had done today?

I cried in the MRT on my way home from woodland..

Why? 

I guess i was too tired, and out of sudden, i wish to have a partner who can give me a real future, so that I 'll not have to worried where to stay if there's no house for me to stay in Singapore...

And out of sudden, I missed him so much..

I know he hated me very much due to my mood swing and bad attitude towards him, and this lead to his misunderstood that I like another guy. 

I don't want to explain anything to him anymore.. 

It'll only show my guilty by trying to explain... 

I hope he is happy with his current life.. while me, trying hard to have a better life..

My October work schedule is out, and i work almost everyday except my and mom's birthday..

I have a birthday wish that will never come true, which is i know it will never happen... let it be my secret ok?

Sometimes, I have a urge to talk to him or something.. but i know he will not entertain me.. 

My feeling... i don't wish to let him know anymore...

I hope this feeling will go away soon.. because... i have no space to cry out anymore...