why??!!

Why were you talked to me today? Why must u do that to me?

Why are you telling me all these?

Tell me that you still miss me...

tell me that you still follow my facebook updates..

tell me that you still care for me...

Why must you tell me? Why must you let me know?

Do you know that it's not easy to make myself withdraw from sending message to you?

How hard I control myself from chatting with you in MSN?

Went to Ikea with Chin, really make me freaking upset.. because it's a place where we spend our time together..having meal there..

Even now, I went to Long John Silver, passed by Manhatten Fish Market, having meal at Subway with another guy.. The memories that we had together, they just flashed out and it's totally out of control...

All these, I really don't know who I can share it with when this happen..

So what if i say i still miss you? Meeting you is the best birthday present I can ever have?

 How could i tell you all these? How? Why?

I don't expect anyone to understand, or believe me.. 

Have a date with other guy, my mind doesn't at ease..at all...

Love you or not, miss you or not, let it be with me, without anyone knowing it.. because I'm tired of explaining my feeling nowadays..

Knowing all these.. makes me feel happy yet sad.. tears out of control again.. but luckily, I'm not outside in the crowd.. I'm hiding under my blanket till my tears dried out...