Tongue piercing!!!

OMG... I'm getting crazy already.. This is how the piercing being done.



How? Looks easy right? But I don't know whether I have the courage to do so.. Hahaha...

tattoo and piercing

I want this peacock tattoo at my back... but mom already prohibit me from getting any tattoo and piercing..

Haiz.. I want tattoo and tongue piercing... I'm kind of weird.. Like to alter my body. I only feel different when I do all these nonsense thingy. Not all people can accept especially those educated people and old folks.

Anyway, i'll get all that when I get much more older. Hahaha... I'm not giving up what I want but just delay it.

How? Nice right? I'll never regret even though i can't get married one day just because of my tattoos... Hahhaha.. I'll get it.. one day..

A sudden feeling..

Whenever I'm with Indah, Boys Girls Relationship (BGR) is our main topic. Second is friendship. Third is talk craps. Hahaha...

BGR--- She and her boyfriend, my ex and me. Actually we talk a lot when we are together. Too much till I couldn't recall any of them. But there is one thing that i still remember, I told her that I'm much more happier after I break up with him. I asked her, is it real that I'm much more happier now if compare to the previous me? She say yes. And I'm happy to hear that because I thought it was just my illusion. She say I always look tired and sleep during lecture, don't have time for myself. What she say was quite true. To think back at that time, I was neglected my friends and most importantly-- myself. I had changed... a lot.. untill I couldn't recognize myself. That feeling was so scary.

To think back, I have to meet him and overnight at his house every Saturday... When we are still in honey moon period, it was really sweet and warm. But sooner or later, when i get tired of all these overnight thingy, rushing here and there, packing my clothes into a big heavy bag, and he refused/ not sincered in helping me carry my bag. Reason? He say inside the bag is my "dirty clothes". It's not good for him to carry it.

I was think, think and think, is it worth to continue this relationship? I asked, complained, seek advice from a lot of people.. super duper not happy at all...

Untill, one day, Indah told me that she break up with her ex.... Then it gave me the courage to voice out my feeling. And we end up with unhappy break up.

I was humiliated by him and his entire family when we were together. No body was dare to do that to me. I feel so tiny. Although I'm not pure, not that good, not capable, not rich, not that pretty, but even my own mom also never say I AM A NO MANNER GIRL. His mom said so, his great grandma said so, his step father said so, his whole family don't like me. Is it my fault? I really don't know.

I wouldn't say I had forget about him, because I'm definately telling lies if I say so. He say he is waiting for his "she".. He say I start missing him when I got no one. I miss him, not because of I got no one but it is because of some reason... Reasons? I love him... everyone can like and have crush with a lot of people but love? NO!! It's only once in a life time. That's why I seldom say "I love u" to anyone...

Anyway, what's the point of saying all these shits now? I know.. because it was just a sudden feeling...

Shopping at DAISO.

What a day.. Should I say it's a lucky day or it's just a normal day? I would like to say it's 50/50. Because we were tought by a lousy tutor.. And that lousy tutor, he let us go an hour earlier than scheduled. Therefore, I can go to Dhouby Ghout to meet Chin. Then we have omelete as our dinner. And again, I scalded my tongue because I was too hungry. After that, we go for shop from level to level, shops to shops. In the end, we shop for 4 hours. And Chin shop for approximate 10 hours. Hahaha...This is the power of girls when they shop.

And I brought 2 tops for $25. And finally, I get what I want today. Then we went to DAISO. Brought a lot of things!!! 3 plastic containers, 2 paper fans, 1 laundry net, 1 water bottle brush and 1 spect case.

My messy room... full with my stuff...

And this is Chin's territory.. messier than mine..

Our clothes... hanging in the air...

Hate him!!!

HIM... my father...

How I wish I can draw out the gene of my father!!! The blood, the gene, EVERYTHING!!! Everything that is related to him. I don't want a single thing from him to exist in my body. I don't want it!!! I hate it... It and father make my life so miserable... Not only mine, but my whole family.. To me, my whole family is: my mom, my brother and my sister. That's all. No body else. Not including my father. You may say I'm cruel, but that's the fact. The fact that I hate him so much!!!

Why I hate him?

 1. He like to blame my mom for every mistakes that we (his children) had made. Blame mom for every weak point that exist in ourselves. He never spare a thought for mom that she is also just an ordinary mother and wife, who need concern and love from her husband. But he never do so for almost 10 years. Since I become a sensible girl, he is no longer a good father to me.

2. He is selfish. All he could think of is only himself. He and his beyond reason's attitude. Not only about meals..He can scold my little sister who is only 8 years old, just because he didn't eat any ice-cream that mom had bought. Because it was finished by my sister. And I still remember there was one incident that happened when I was wanted to attend the orientation in NYP. It was a rainy day when we (father and I, on motorbike) was about to leave S'ngapore's custom. He put on the rain coat for himself and asked me:" Do you need the rain coat?" I say:" NO". In the end, I'm wet. Mom ask him why he never let me wear the raincoat while he was just send me to Boon Lay MRT and he will be going home after that. He say:" Because the raincoat is dirty."  All I can say is he is a self-centered father. Who on earth will let his own daughter get wet on the way for her first orientation?

3. He is a super duper lazy man. Dirty and smelly. Blamer. He want to have his dinner. Guess what he do in order to get his dinner. This is what he will do: Sit on the chair at the dining table and say this to my mom:" I want to have dinner." And expect my mom to scoop the rice for him. My mom was busy with her work. And he was acted like he is a king. And afetr he had finished, he just left the empty and dirty plate on the table.  I really hate his behavior. That's why I really hate to have dinner with him. And I hate when any other guy who born with or had been pampered to be behaved like this. Disgusting!!!

LAZY: work overtime for one day, he say he is very tired and don't want to work anymore. Oh gosh!! He is only 47 years old. And he had 3 kids to support! And now, his salary was being used by me, for my study. And mom's hard earn money was used for my siblings school fees and other daily expenses. And he was once promised that he have money for my studies. But now, my other family members who had to suffer due to my studies. All because of him. He want me to continue study, and I did tell him that I don't want to study. He blamed my mom, and in order not to make my mom being sandwiched between all this stupid problems, I listen to her. Continue my study. ( I know they want me to have a better future, but if all this that my mom have to face everyday, I'll never listen to her.)

4. Unreasonable. Prohibit my siblings from watching tv programmes. But he himself hide in his room to watch tv. Stupid father with idiot rules!!!

5. Threaten. He threaten my mom. If she don't want to have another baby boy (after my brother, who is now my little sister) he will find another woman to carry on his ancestral line. But unfortunately, his gen wasn't strong enough to have another son.Because of this, now, he had to earn more money to support the family. Who ask him so eager to have another son? But I don't think he care. Because a real man care. You know what I mean....I don't care what he do outside but I'll never forgive him if he dare to hurt my family..

5. A good actor. In others impression, he is a good, hardworking father, who worked really hard to earn money. Very thrifty. That was inherited from my grandmother, who is also a good actress.

I know! He is my father. And this is real and no matter how much i hate him, he is till my father from inside out. The blood that flowing in my body now also belongs to him. And I know I shouldn't post these here, but. like I had already mention in my heading, FUCK off if you don't like it!

I hate guys who had all the characteristics that similar to him. That's why I break up with my ex.. Phobia.. i rather be alone for the rest of my life if I have to live with a husband like him...

Happy birthday to mama

Mom's home made cake. She baked it herself, followed the recipe from book. Poor mama.. And mom, I'm so sorry that I can't afford any cake for your birthday this year. I promise you, I'll give you a better birthday celebration next year. The cake look nice and delicious but it's a bit too sweet for us. Although it's quite hard but nice to eat when it's chilled.

Although I just came back from M'sia, but I'm home sick again. That's why I don't feel like going home (AMK's home).  And I realized, every time I came back from M'sia, I'll feel emo, super duper emo. And feel like crying. Whenever I leave mom, I'll have the urge to hug her, but because of shy, I never do so. I'm so deprived of her hugs. I miss you, mom. Happy 45th birthday!!!

Bad habit!!!

I had this bad habit when I am having rice as my meal. I like to torture myself while eating rice. For example, I like to gorge myself with a big mouth full of rice, like how a begger eat. I don't know why, but I like the feeling being gorged. Especially when I'm feeling down or emo. I'll feel much better after I do so. Sounds crazy right? I know I am. Hahaha..

If one day, when I stop doing or thinking of want to do any stupid things, most probably I had dead. Ahahaha...

Eat like a begger. This sounds so familiar. Ah.. now i remember. Wei long's mother said that before. Said that i eat like a begger. I think it's quite true. A girl who eat like a begger was not qualified to be her daughter in law...

Tell a lie...

Haiz.. i had tell a lie last night. My colleague from China, Fei Fan and Ching Fan want to borrow my camera. They had asked it from me once from the first time i brought it to my work place. But i rejected them. Because i borrowed money from Shuang Shuang to purchase that camera. And now, I don't even start to pay her my installment yet. So I'm quite reluctant to lend them my first camera. And so coincidence that my mom messege me to know whether i'm going home or not this Saturday.Therefore, I asked mom to send me a sms. Eventually, my first messege was in English. And she wasn't that understand what i wrote. So i rewrite the messege in chinese and including this sentence:" Bring back the camera when you are coming home. I want to use it." And she did what i asked her to do. So i show the messege to them as a prove. Anyway, after they saw the messege, they just say:" What to do? Mother comes first."

I feel so sorry after what i had done. But I don't feel at ease if I lend them my camera. You know, accident can't be predict. So I'm sorry girls. Well, telling a lie was not easy.

Wondering..

i wonder... When he online, will he check my nick? When he saw this nick, what's in his mind...

What's in his mind? It won't make any changes, no matter what happen. No matter how i think, i thought and how i hope...

Because, the problem no longer lies between him and me. It's an overall problem...

No matter how much i miss him, it will not have any changes. Not a little changes...

But still,I really hope that I'll never know when, who, what will the next she be... because i know, if i know, it'll be a saddest day for me.. but the happiest day for him...

And today, is an emo day for me...

Complains!!!

When some one is a educated person, he knows his right very well. Example, a consumer's right. They have rights to complain and compare the products and services. When they are not satisfied with it, they will complain and asked for discount. 

The statement above was what I learn from Singaporean. And i believe, every one who know or heard about Singapore will know this truth. When i first came here, i wasn't that believe this rumor. But as time moves on, I realized that all these rumors are truth. Even worse..

I was working last night. There was a table of customers. Around 7 persons. They came and they said they want to cut the birthday cake first due to some of them need to leave early. Then I prepared all--- means ALL including 7 small plates, 7 small folks, put the candles on the cake, even gave them a lighter. After that every one was very busy as the customers came one after another. And even the drinks also have been served on the table. Just that it wasn't poured into cups. Guess what they said after 10 minutes...
C: "We want to cut the cake first because some of us need to leave earlier."
Me:" I had prepared everthing for you on the table already."
C:" Oh.. so we need to do it ourselves? And the tea you just leave it on the table just like that."
in my mind: Oh my.. All are prepared on your table, all you need to do was just light the candle and distribute the cake. And for the tea, just pour it!!!"
Me:" Ok."  After i light the candle and pour the tea, i raised my head up and smile at them. And.... they smile back at me. *stunt* And i quickly walked away because my smile won't last long..

Haiz.. and another table, an old man claimed that the crab's shell was this big * he show me the size with some imaginary line* but now the crab's shell that he was eating *almost finished except for the shell* was small. Not the size that he had choosen.   Actually the 2 crabs was just 2.2 kg. Whic means 1 crab is 1kg, another one is 1.2kg. How big he want the crab be? Use your brain first before you complain. And if you so scared that we will change your crab, maybe you can consider to buy 1 and cook it yourself.


One more story. The customer ordered quite a lot of dishes. Before the order chit was sent to the kitchen, they claimed that they had told the waitress who took the order for them, all the dishes must be in low salt and less oil. In the end, they ate all the dishes were so oily and so salty.

In my opinion, chili crab must have enough oil so that the colour will look nice. Butter cream crab-- what kind of butter was not salty? Oh please.. this is a average cost restaurant. They will just use butter that was not that costy but yet tasty. ( what am i talking about?) And one's perspective on salty and oily is really different. How can the chef know what is the scale for salty and oily? Unless the chef is the one who cook for you everyday. Am i right? So the only solution for this problem is, buy your own crabs and cook it yourself and stop complain for nothing!!!

P/s: All these are the complains from the customers who patronized CRAB PARTY. And I also complain about them to my boyfriend. So all of us are the complainers.. AHAHAHA...

new look for my boyfriend

Hehee... This is how my boyfriend's new look after i meticulously design for him. See.. this shows how deep my love is. Only for him. Hahaha.. Need to thanks Yiru and Chin because they teach me how to do it. Thank you!!! Feel success when i complete it within 2 and a half hour. Proud of myself. Hahaha...

Anyway, I some kind of hate my father more and more, days after days. Really need to thank him, I need to pay my M1 broadband bill for 2 months at one goal-- $82. And now, I'm really broke!!! Mom asked me whether i still have money, I say yes. Well, it's a lie to make my mom feel at ease. How filial I am. Now the only way to survive for this month, i have to work more days than usual. Just to earn my daily expenses. Really need to thank my father for torturing me like this.

Actually...

Actually, I have a lot of things to tell, but due to over due date, I forget what I want to say already. Short term memory..

I had just sign up for a saving plan, which is one of a product of PRUDENTIAL. Cost me about $73.++ a month. Well, to be frank, I really wish to have this kind of saving to help me save. Because no matter how hard i save, at the end of the month, my account will still turn less than $50. So i really don't want to drag my life time on save for nothing. I asked mom, whether i should sign up for this  plan, she say: " As long as you still have money to eat after you pay for all these bills, and will not come back and asked for extra allowance, go ahead." Hahaha.. That's my mom. She will just let me do anything that I want, as long as it's harmless, and I don't ask money from her, she will just say yes. If you also need these plan, look for me, I'll introduce to the handsome agent from Hong Kong.

Talked about this agent, his name is Jerry. And i can only remember his name after half an hour he talked to me. So pathetic-- for him. And after i sign up the plan, i told my friend as in I want them to sign up for this plan for their own benefit, they asked me a question. " How you know he is not a swindler?" Then i realized, i was so stupid.. Then i sms Jerry. This is how the message look/ sounds like: " Hello, sorry to disturb you, but i have a stupid question to ask you. How i know that you are a real Prudential agent?" After a few minutes the messege was been sent out, he called me. He said: "..." He said a lot of things. He actually answer my question, but I think i really make his day like" OMG".. Hahaha.. Stupid me.. Learn quite a lot of things from him. Things that i never thought... 

Chin is back from her hometown today. I'm so happy to see her again. Feels like one month didn't see her. But actually it's only about 2 weeks. Oh how I miss her. And i keep grumble and complain to her today. How I wish I have a boyfriend like her, who is willing to listen to my complains.. hahaha.. thank you!!!

I think I had make my blog as my boyfriend.. Because i seems like spending more and more time on it, instead of spending times on real people. Funny right? Anyway, I don't find any guys who are sincere enough to touched me. Not that touch but that kind of touch. Hahaha.. now i talk like a patient in IMH.. I miss those patients. Am i crazy or what? I think I am.

Bday celebration with my family

Going home to celebrate my 21st birthday with my family. Mom prepared the food since evening. She cooked Penang Laksa. OMG.. It's the first time i ate laksa since i moved to Johor. And i don't really like S'ngpore's laksa because it is so "lemak". Hmm, do any one understand "lemak"? In my term, "lemak" means anything that is oily and contain coconut milk. Or the food taste very milky or yucky.. For my mom's Penang Laksa, it's not oily but fishy. Hahaha.. trust me, you will want another bowl if u like fish. She prepared not a lot of food but all are for that night's BBQ session. I like BBQ..

 The Mee Sua that mom cooked for me. So yummy. See, it can be stretched over my head liao. Hahaha...Am i the birthday girl or the helper for this BBQ? Oh god, uncle them just sit there and waited for the food to be cooked. They say: "we don't know how to light a fire from carcoal. OMG.. He must be never go to any survival camp. "Blek"A father who is just care about himself. Struggle to eat first instead of gave up his food to his hungry children. Anyway, he sms me his birthday wish to me early in the morning. Quite touched but his behaviour really make myself feel so pathetic. Anyway, like my mom told me, he is your father no matter what happen, HE IS YOUR FATHER..Guess what i had wished for my birthday?? I wish: GOD, please show your mercy by letting me celebrate my 22nd birthday with my family again. Thank you. Want to guess how much is this perfume? RM 145++. Can't really remember the exact price. How I know? Very simple, it's my uncle- the one who give me the present, he told me the price. I was like... omg... so expensive, and i think he is a very .. "what the word i should use?" honest? Haiz.. and my nanny said: " If you don't want the perfume, just give it to me." My auntie heard that, she was shocked and open the mouth like almost drop her jaw.. Hahaha.. My nanny is old but still want to look pretty like a young lady. Think back few years ago, she even asked me for pink colour nail polish. PINK!!! Hahaha...

This is how I celebrate my 21st birthday with my family. And again.. I celebrated my birthday without a boyfriend...

Celebrated my preview 21st bithday with JMD members. At k-box. Desmond spammed about 500 of photo taking. He is crazy!! And I'm not sure whether is his skill sucks or my camera wasn't high tech enough, among 500 photos that he took, 300 are blurred. Really make my camera look sucks. Haiz... And the songs that i sang, most of them are quite sentimental and out dated, but yet still popular. Haiz.. but most of the kids never heard them.. make me sounds so old, lucky got junior Ting Ting there. Or else, I really can't sing well because all the mood will be spoiled by those kids. Hahaha.. I'm quite disappointed when i saw they take the k-box's cake. Because its really not worth with the money that they paid for it. Dear kids, I'm sorry to say so but it's really not worth with the money. Next time, no more birthday cake from k-box. Not only for me, but treat that as an experience.

Although complain a lot, but deep in my heart, I'm really very happy that you guys willing to spend whole day to celebrate with me.. and i like tha turtke.. thanks guys!!! muackx!!! Actually, I want to post the photos and videos but the quality is not good. So sorry.. hahaha!!!

人啊！

沒錢的時候，養豬；
有錢的時候，養狗。

沒錢的時候，在家裡吃野菜；
有錢的時候，在酒店吃野菜。

沒錢的時候，在馬路上騎自行車；
有錢的時候，在客廳裡騎自行車。

沒錢的時候想結婚；
有錢的時候想離婚。

沒錢的時候老婆兼秘書；
有錢的時候秘書兼老婆。

沒錢的時候假裝有錢；
有錢的時候假裝沒錢。

人啊，都不講實話：

說股票是毒品，都在玩；
說金錢是罪惡，都在撈；

說美女是禍水，都想要；
說高處不勝寒，都在爬；

說煙酒傷身體，就不戒；
說天堂最美好，都不去!!!

當今社會，窮吃肉，富吃蝦，領導幹部吃王八；
男想高，女想瘦，狗穿衣裳人露肉；

過去把第一次留給丈夫；
現在把第一胎留給丈夫。

鄉下早晨雞叫人，
城裡晚上人叫雞；

舊社會戲子賣藝不賣身，
新社會演員賣身不賣藝。


人生是什麼?  
只 用 了 4 4 個 字  ,  就 把 人 生 講 完 了 ...
所 以   人 與 人  , 有 啥 好 計 較 的 咧  ?  
快樂好相處比較重要啦！

     1 歲 時   出場亮相  
  10 歲 時   功課至上
  20 歲 時   春心盪漾
  30 歲 時   職場對抗
  40 歲 時   身材發胖
  50 歲 時   打打麻將
  60 歲 時   老當益壯
  70 歲 時   常常健忘
  80 歲 時   搖搖晃晃
  90 歲 時   迷失方向
100 歲 時   掛在牆上


祝大家愉快，好好做人

love problem

do i look like a sex machine? do i have a "sex" word on my forehead? can i have a pure relationship without any sex content? just like Disney world.. am i a mood spoiler? this is the second time i heard it.. i feel so sad...

Some guys look for me when they are bored. Some look for me when they want to have sex.

Mood spoiler. He used to say that to me last time. This word sounds familiar to me. I feel so down and even more upset when i heard it again last night.

I think i should just get very drunk last night. So that I wont be so stupid just to wait the monk to be online and chat with me. Then as a result i make him angry by spoil his mood. He sounds a bit upset when i say some one gave me a ring. What was that mean? He also likes me? But after i analyse his behavior and attitude, i find that we are not suitable. Because he don't like shallow thinking girl. But i think i am a shallow girl. And after a few meeting and conversation, i don't understand his thinking. ( maybe this is a way to comfort myself that i likes him but can't be together..)

Anyway, i think he is angry with my shallow attitude.. Never mind, we are just from 2 very different world. I guess..

A small surprise birthday celebration for Shuang. Actually we planned to celebrate with my family this saturday but things didn't turned up as planned, so i decided to have a small celebration for her. She reached.. She make her birthday wishes..

Want to cut the cake but need to wait for her room mate.. lili..

She told me that she never cut a birthday cake and also never receive a present before. Hmm... so pitty.. i'll feel very sad if i didn't receive any birthday present... anyway, she likes her present and the cake very much..

Doggy.. i like this soft toy.. the fur is so nice to touch..

She was smiling.. she is happy.. i'm happy that she is happy..

She is destroying the cake...

This is how the cake looks like after the operation.. Ahhh.. cake destroyer...

P/s: happy birthday my dear friend. I hope you will have a nice memory for your birthday..